I'm getting real tired of this feeling. It's starting to take over me and defining who I am. But, I'm not like this, I'm not a bitch, I'm not one who's thinking of steeling something when in a store. WHAT THE FUCK is happening? It was only a guy, yeah he hurt me physically but it can't be THIS serious.I need to find out what's making me into this, I don't even like the things and hobbies that I used to like. I'm becoming reckless, a stupid teenager who makes really stupid ideas.... The worst part is, I don't even want to be friends or seen around with my friends any more, I'm just a grey cloud all the time, no sunshine no rain to wash it away just grey and confused. ...I'm not me any more.